Splash and dash

shadow

2010-02-14T04:47:00.000-08:00

These dark days i have been shaken to the core and slowly it has ripped into my heart... the long awaited snow...comesin and melts this sorrow i have been feeling..
letters... await to take flight intothe air. Who knows where is the wind shall blow and take me next...i may still be lying there under that tree...where once i was woken by a stranger... we sat and talked about my art and poetry..how i miss those days of being so free. Who stops me? I stop me. Its these twisted state of my mind. Trying to balance the dark and light . It all crashes down around me, somewhere far off i hear a dolphins voice and i close my eyes and dream im standing in that sea.

when is it we learn to breathe its like waking up to nature.......

beautifully.

now that i am enveloped in a sea of stars mantled like a child to the cold..

i wish thee a good night

from the

ally

update

2009-10-25T15:32:00.000-07:00

Today i have been feeling a stack down. Its been a while since ive written here.. oh well. Thought id blog today. what has been happening:

*made heaps of cards... for the market stall. Only sold under $10 worth. I am going to continue going to the yarragon one. Including one held at the school.

*started a herb garden... they all look tiny but it will look great once in full flourish. Basil, thyme, garlic, chives, mint, peppermint, catnip, tansy, majoram, corriander, flat leaf parsley, curly leaf parley,and sage, oragano, varigated oragano so far... they are all small.. ill have to watch the mint so it doesnt take over the garden..same with the cat grass. Id love to grow some lemon grass and a few other herbs that i dont have. Its a big ;patch.. ive lost the book i had.. i was going to plant them in some kind of order.. i lost the paper that i had it written on... plus Im growing some of them from seed.

*Growing flowers from seed too.. enough to run a small flower stand i think.. dad asked if i was going to open a florist shop with the amount ive got. Some have not come up yet, though i seperated the chillies and have 14 plants.. some of which i shall give away.

*went to my uncles wedding. Which was great brigette looked a million dollars in her wedding dress. It was a great day too. I helped cater for it.. made 80 mini cup cakes. Decorated them all.

*went to the city

* spent a lot of time drawing put a folio together.

*helping to paint the house at weekends with mum... fun fun fun. Got to have it done by the time nicola gets here...ergh deadline!

*nicola, trond and roman are coming out here for christmas.

*looking forward to a holiday by the beach too.

and thats about it for now. I have been experimenting with markers and watercolours lately. Thats my pet project. Anyhow... will write more later alligator.

albell

owies

2009-08-06T03:37:00.000-07:00

Owies..i have had my wisdom tooth removed...it hurts like hell. Got a sore jaw...owies..cant make any goodies til next weekish or so. oH WELL.. will be sticking to a diet of mush and warm stuff. So i think i shall go sleep and hope i dont have nightmares. So i dont tknow if u read this anymore..oh well..goodnight.

ally

cupcakes

2009-07-27T04:45:00.001-07:00

I have been experimenting with cupcakes. TODAY WAS AN OFF COLOUR haeve y for them. I atttempted some weirdarse recipe chai tea cupcakes..they have the texture of muffins. I am making choc-mocha ones tomorrow. I just love to bake..and tis the right season after all and have found some amazing things to put on them. I owe credit to a few books i have been looking at for inspiration.

Well i will write more later alligator.

ally

long time

2009-06-29T22:15:00.000-07:00

Log time, not sure if anymone reads this anymore. I have gone .h
a bit cabin fever ish. Im not sure where to go or what to do. Well i have been drawing a hell of a lot. Which is good. Sold a few pieces. I have to get a pal psyaccount. So i am still seeing my psychologist and an a seeing my case manager.
er p

Im not sure.

anyhow

catch yer later.
i made pumpkin soup vyor dinner i was a bit heavy handed with the curry powh
der.

ergh

ally

opening

2009-05-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

So many new shops are opening here.. I thinkthat is a good thing. Heaps and heaps are about to open.. even an art store.. (golly gee) Not that i need any more art supplies. I have plenty,just need another sketch pad. Its mum birthday and Im got her some earrings plus will get her some flowers tomorrow. A nice bunch of iris or somethingt that is in season, no stinky lillies or anything.

So what now for lil ol me? Not sure im alil better than what i was .

darker grows the day

2009-05-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

a line from nick cave song... i know.. but thats how it feels. I guess we are not into the depths/ heart of winter yet. Anyhow...i have been reading and scrabbling..and painting. etc.. lala

anyhow..

i will write more tomorrow.

albell

out of

2009-05-13T22:52:00.000-07:00

So i have not written in some time. Since my whinge. Lets see now.. I havezeen painting a llittle bit, taking photos sometimes. i m going to buy adobe photoshop this weekend. So i can work on tweaking the photos ive taken.
t
I have no seen louise since about easter...so look forward to her coming home with allen tomorrow night... Ive been lazin about. Tonight it will be me attempting to cook meat for about the first time.. ergh..um if i get food poisoning it will be my fault. Mum said t marrinade them t them in mustard and brown sugar...and put them in the oven. ..

So im going to try that..also cut up al the veggies already... mash with carot and broccoli. Out of this..i am reading this book about sracbble..by of all people Darren Hinch... (i know shame shame shame) ... i am also reading paul Coehleo newie.. the winner stands alone. Its prett dark..the dark side of hollywood really.. the dark that lies in all of us.

I have been playing heaps of scrabble my rating is up. A little. I am maintaining a 62% rate of winning. I dont always go to the beginner spot more of a casual player.
So yeps. I am getting my hair cut in a few weeks time too.

I hope to visit the city sometime too. Its the only thing about not being able to drive... is bloody pt everywhere. Oh well u get sometime. So now.. well.. i better go put the oven on...

ciao for now

love ally

home body

2009-05-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

home bod ny..been at home a lot.. Have not written in here as much my as i should. I have had my 31st birthday. Now. So that was a quiet family do this year. Did not feel like celebrating it. Toe place we went for food it took an horur to be served our food.. i think they were out fishing hunting and shooting for it.

Anyhow thats my gripe. Have not done or achieved very much as of late. Lets see now.. nope nothing. A few paintings,a few photos. I got a lot of birthday cards...which is nice. Have had a very quiet days.

One day folds into another...and another and another. ergh..oh well that happens at times. Well i will write more to my neglected blog later..

omlette

2009-04-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

instead of ke a giant quiche turned out like a giant omlette damn I took more photos today. Cant post them on here... for somer reason.

mucking around

2009-04-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

Soi found myself with a little cabin fever... i picked up the camera and popped on some makeup and began taking photos. .. its good. I love it. Today i used mums pearls, a shawl i bought from denmark and then the parasol that tammy got me from china. I like this photo..i took heaps butonly end up with about 3! Im in high spirits again. Just waiting for the rug to be pulled out from under me again

well lets see.. no plans for birthday just might let this one fly by with just the family.
*sigh* welpers. i have a beautiful raspberry leaf tea here...and i ts just awaiting me. I still havent seen friends since early december/november. Not sure what to do about that... ergh anyhow I will put the photo up later as they are doing maintenance

me me me

2009-04-15T01:41:00.001-07:00

this is a photo i took of myself... its a nice one so i thought id post it here! I am going to take on photographing myself. Its kinda fun.

on going

2009-04-07T18:26:00.000-07:00

On going saga called life is still going on *SIghs* t si dont want to give into voices. I dont want to give in to all the voices. I just wantto be little ol ally again.

well thats

all i gotter sayy

ciao

ally

whats up ally?

2009-03-31T20:56:00.000-07:00

whats up with me. ? Im not eating right im not sleeping that well. Oh well doesnt matter. I tried to write a poem..couldnt even do that. I guess its just me. I have been solving puzzles from thats life magazines.... fun. I even rn into mahfoud on here... he is going well...and has gf and is very happy. Which is nice to hear. he deserves some lovely lady.

anyhow, having left overs for tea tonight so i dont have to cook.

i am going to make these egg and apsaragus burgers tomorrow though.

albell

chain

2009-03-29T14:41:00.000-07:00

I am painting again...which is so liberating... i am also planning a tripto new zealand to visit my friend. I am not that welll at the moment..depression has settled in, its a hard thing for me to deal with. I hope u r well.I have been throwing a lot of my work out...old stuff. Its also freeing..to not be tied to my past with a ball and chain. I am still a little nuts but oh well.

anyhow
write more later

albell

cross

2009-03-26T17:05:00.000-07:00

I am very angry with myself.

for being able to catch the train today

im a bit lost at the moment. Im sure ill find my feet. sometime soon.

i wish i was better. So i can do all the things i like. Im in a rut. A real messed up place.

anyhow.. will write more later alligator

tapping

2009-03-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

tap tap tap.. i got up this morning and just felt sad. Im not that great at the moment. Only takes ou to little bit for reality to set in. Its odd i was reading my past journals and used to dream about the devils and angels a hell of lot. I dont know why ever since s in my teens. Its like i had access to the constant battle between heaven and hell. I will write more later.

alligator.

heart

2009-03-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

whats it like to have a heart?
TO to the ends of the earth they went for me.

They should have let me drown in the pool
I guess we all have moments like those

Not sure of where I am going
but they were always there for me

i miss a beat
i missed that beat

catching some sun

2009-03-21T22:15:00.001-07:00

So its a lovely autumn day. I am inside. Angry as my ipod has broken. Ive had it for 3 weeks and it is so fecked already. So tomorrow, i will buy another one. Im not sure what i did to it.

Well i guess the picture i painted is real pretty

turn turn turn

2009-03-20T13:31:00.000-07:00

turn turn turn
turn turn turn.

I do not remember my dreams lately...

turn turn turn
turn turn turn

I could not sleep for a while

turn turn turn
turn turn turn

think its a note of sleep i want

turn turn turn
turn turn turn

bitter pill

2009-03-16T20:57:00.000-07:00

the bitter pill of punishment is catching me up. I cant really go out. It was quiet enough in the cafe. Had coffee and brunch. Read some magazine. I am a little bit skeptical about a few things today. I cannot believe as of late. Well I guess.

fear

2009-03-15T16:05:00.000-07:00

My greatest fear is and has always been letting go of things that hold me down. The baggage that goes with it. I have heald on to it for a long long time. Pigeonholed myself into a corner,...anyhow i have an appointment today...

better go

love albell

wedding photos

2009-03-07T14:53:00.000-08:00

Hi theret l the wedding went well. I will write more about it later here are some photos. I guess I feel a little shattered at the moment.If i had confidence then perhaps things would be different. Once again I have pigeonholed myself in and cant
leave the baggage behind. I hate that. There is little i can do though. how

Anyhow.. i have been having enough pity parties... like the rabbit from alice in wonderland i am later for an important date... i wish I could go travel.. money and laack of being well prevents me.

U know what i miss,? Doing th ings by myself. I used to be able to read and write sitting in the park...go to movies by myself.. i was free back then, for the past ten years i have boxed myself. . U know i cried and cried at louise and alans wedding.
From start to finish. I had a few ladies ask why , i guess its because all my family are partnered up and I well I have no one. It is my fault. I drove them all away. Insecurity... old baggage, unsure of myself... all that jazz.

So its pity party time again.

ciao for now

fire

2009-02-10T01:09:00.000-08:00

Bush fires rage and have consumed so much of victoria it is very very sad but sick to think that so,me of them had been deliberately lit. It is sad for everyone. Here in our town on saturday there were road blockages.. and smoke it was eerie at 3pm it was almost grey and black all doom and gloom kinda like hell on earth.

It has made me sad. Very sad. Wild life, people and natures fury. Here our house was covered in soot and there was ash flying out the sky.There are still around 20ish fires happening, over 700houses lost, even some towns completely wiped out, a lot of people dead and wild life and live stock, perished.

A few football grounds have become tent cities, people have bound together and donated money, basic supplies, plus clothes , shoes and food. It is the biggest natural disaster to have ever affected australia. Not to mention all the volunteers, fire fighters, hospitals. everyone in a combined effort.

well i guess thats all the news for now... as sad sad sad as is.

about

2009-02-05T19:38:00.000-08:00

today I went out and about. I made myself go down the road. Got a few things . I got a bottle of baylies. Though im supposed to be losing weight in all honesty i dont think i will. Not the way i eat. Its not from my medication. I do think im a lot depressed though. *Sighs*

I used to do a lot by myself..go to parks, sit and write... goto movies.. i used to do that all... i used to have a great life.. think it halted about 10years ago. Its just not fair that i cant do these things again. I used to like my own company.

Natalia is doing a great job creating jewelery out of the beads we sent her. Some stunning pieces, a great flair she has. I took louises bracelet in for repair. I got my tattslotto ticket,.. well u got to be in it to win it I guess.

Well i need a coffee..

ciao

hermit

2009-02-05T00:30:00.000-08:00

I have been a bit of a homebody as of late. Just watching ugly betty and drawing. I will go out tomorrow as im tired of being home. Some of the drawings look ok.. others i have torn up. I probably wont paint til after my sister and brother visit.

What els is new? Not much really just this and that. ]

so now i will write more later alligator

ugly betty

2009-01-29T20:43:00.000-08:00

I find myself watching ugly betty again. Just felt like some escapism. I am still not all that well still. Its been an absolute heatwave lately nothing under 30.. even the nights are hot hot hot. Ive just been hiding inside. though i made it out today. Just for half an hour. Otherwise ive been housebound for the last 3 days.

I am tired. Even though i had a 2hr nap already. Must be exhausting for those who have to work outside. Sheesh the must swelter. We are going out for dinner tonight.. celebrating my parents 36th wedding anna.

Anyhow... its almost 4 here... so suppose i better get going... watch somemore betty.

albell

heya again

2009-01-26T18:11:00.000-08:00

Heya out there again. Smee. not a lot to report again. I went shopping.. got some bling shoes for louises wedding.. they are really blingy. I didnt buy anything else, cept afternoon tea for everyone.

I have been drawing, reading.. my reading.. well all of the 3 books.. i should halt and read one at a time i think. Which one? I am not sure. Managed to go for a lunch out yesterday.. there was a band playing. The food was not so crash hot. Ate it anyhow.

I feel like baking but its way too hot.. maybe id have to get up at some madcapped hour and do so. We have all the stuff to bake with. So now what?

well i have a few letters to write. So take care out there.

albell

Hiding still

2009-01-21T17:11:00.000-08:00

Hiding in still. Its wayyyy hot out there. I am quite tired today. There is no suprise. I have to take dvds back to the store. Although i could leave it til tomorrow..an just pay the fine and pay it tomorrow. I dont know.

So what else is new? not too much. Ive been a bit boring lately. Think im going to go and have some lunch.

hiding in

2009-01-19T16:25:00.000-08:00

Went out today bloody hot even though it was 9am and at least 2oish outside already. I was only out briefly. Just a break from the house. I think was oing batty from staying home so much.

I posted my friend in the states a letter written on the back of a painting. In a circle again. Waiting to see how much he hates spinning it round and round to read it. I wonder. I have put my hair up into a bun... something i have not done in years.

So i better go and make myself a coffee.. to wake up a bit more.

albell

slowly

2009-01-18T21:43:00.000-08:00

Slowly slowly . Its a monday... its going to be a stinking hot week by the looks of things. 30s forcast for the next 5days. Ever so glad for the aircon. I have not been anywhere nor have i achieved much. I had set no goals for the day, i should have. I was ready to go out at 4ish but changed my mind when i stepped outside.. too hot.

I managed to put more and new music onto my ipod..though i feel like wiping it all off and starting again!I won't do that though. I realized im only unsing half of it. So i can put another heap of cds on it.

I have started to write again. Well write a few letters anyhow. I will head down and post them in the morning before the heat kicks in. Shhesh the heat makes one tired. Its now 5pm.. smee is tired. Well I had some rice and tuna for lunch.. just in a bowl. Its what i craved.

Better go now.

ally

down and down.

2009-01-17T00:19:00.000-08:00

I am feeling very down today, not sure what to do about it either. I guess its just me. Perhaps things will improve tomorrow.. every day is one step closer to another day.. they say that today is a present. True i guess.

I feel like baking banana bread or something. We have a few that are dark. My life is a little empty and i guess a lot shallow. I want colour back in my life.. i want to make it more vibrant and beautiful.

So little steps? Give in? Anyhow. I am a lot strong.

got to go now

bride war

2009-01-15T04:14:00.000-08:00

This is a very entertaining and funny movie. I had not been to a cinema in 3yrs.. i guess its just because I felt like it and wanted to challenge myself to c a film. Good ha? Yepsies. Popcorn, coke and all that jazz.

So today i had a better day the best all week i was amazed. Well its almost half 11pm and im bloody tired.

night night

sheesh

2009-01-13T18:16:00.000-08:00

Sheesh, what a day. It is 40 outside.. so we hired some movies.. they have dropped the price of rentals..dramatically i guess its cause they want to keep customers and not lose them to people buying them cheap at stores.

I went out and had two coffees so im wired for sound now and not tired... plus i had lemon cheesecake pie. I just had a roll for lunch too. Oh well. I noticed a mark on my arm today.. i have no idea what its from.. oh well. I was up at 2am til 4am this morning..writing a letter to my pen friend.

I guess.. i was on a drowsy high. As per usual. I am going to go to the movies tomorrow and see a fun film called bride wars (Thats if it is on here) (i hope so) Im challenging myself to do more...

I still feel like shit though. My psychiatrist is worried about my weight.. wants me to get blood tests done.. i guess they didnt put me in hospital,.. but see if i deteriorate i will go in.

So i guess.. i will write more later gator.

ally

silly me

2009-01-11T21:44:00.000-08:00

Silly me. Silly be. I am still holding that candle. I have been crying an awful lot today. I had a dream last night so vivid in colours but i dont know what it was all about. *Sighs* I guess im no good at this stuff. I feel alone, totally isolated in my head.

Today i got a letter from angiebear.. i started reading the book she got me for christmas too. I feel like giving in to all these things. I feel like living dreams. What life is about. Solving puzzles.

How is the dolphin swimming,,,going your own way and letting go of all the things that held ya back. Well dinner is almost ready.

got to go

mellow

2009-01-08T20:39:00.000-08:00

Very very mellow today. I have been just a little sad.. maybe holding a pity party for myself. Hope i can move on, i know i can. I cant deal with a silent room.. andi fear hospital cause i guess all my creature comforts would be confiscated off me.

So i got a few dvds to watch... which is great. Im not going to the city tomorrow, i am just scared id freak it and then have a two hour hellish trip home.. i have done much reflecting.

U know the thing i held back from most was love. It still is. I cry at most things with love. Material things are not and cannot give u love.. iguess thats why i am a materialistic bitch.All those years ago I think i should have signed up for aa
the times i got drunk to overcome shyness. Making a fool out of myself..was common place.. i think i am now a little on the sober side. Or i have to be. Perhaps i was a massive show off after dutch courage.

I have missed out on a lot of things in life due to my alcohol infused nights. Now.. i have seen the error of my ways.

i could go on and on about this... i probably have and still will. I have started a journal. It is good to write. I just finished a letter to my pen friend.. and have another one to write this weekend.

I am not sure. Anyhow.. lala.

I have just about finished reading the comfort of saturdays.. (alexander mcall smiths) latest installment in the philosophical days of isabell. Its a really good read. I have a few other books to read too... im getting there.

Well.. got a few things to do..better go now

later alligator.

new day

2009-01-07T18:58:00.001-08:00

It is about time i sat down to write. Although im not sure what to write about. Im sure if i dig round in my mind i can find a few things. Im glad its getting closer to when nicola and roman visit for louises wedding. Cept it still feels like i won't make it. I have been having a lot of nightmares thats for sure. All about death and doom and gloom type ones. I will discuss it with my case manager tomorrow.

I have done little today, just another day really, im chugging along slowly..who knows if ill even be able to go to the city on saturday. Im not sure i'll be well enough to travel. *big sigh* I have doubts so many doubts lately.

I have had a few fittings with the birdesmaids dress. Its a lovely colour. A deep purple. I think louise will look beautiful in her wedding dress. I just got to take it one day at a time. Crying about it all wont get me anywhere. I used to think that i was ok. Im not anymore.

So anyway.. im waiting for dad to come home now. I can hear the 2pm bus... i better go.

blog holiday

2009-01-04T01:53:00.000-08:00

Have been spending little time writing. Will write more later though alligator.

today

2008-12-31T17:44:00.000-08:00

today starts a new year a new day and all that jazz. I had a very quiet one.. reading and then got up and watched the fire works on tv... really lovely. Then i felt so creative alive and awake so i got out my pastels and covered a fan that tammy got me from china and used stamps and pastels and decorated them. One is mroe fun than the other. So they both look good..i want to send one to a friend.

I am writing again/// its nice to.

take care out there

love ally

new years

2008-12-31T00:53:00.000-08:00

Sorry havent written in you for a while... just been feeling a bit down as of late. I hope you all have a rocking new years. Im having a quiet one... just at home with a few movies.. sheesh i must be getting old. They say that how you bring your new years in is how you shall spend the coming year..so mine will be spent with family. I do hope that we shall all be together for louises wedding.

Anyhow.. I have started writing in a journal so i will post that up on here too. I have been feeling real depresed. Its hard to shake the blues some times.

Anyhow...

happy new years and all that jazz.

love ally

brake

2008-12-18T22:57:00.000-08:00

I am on a little brake at the moment. Will gfet back intot he full swing of writing tomorrow.. at the moment... I have been buisy making tags i will take some photos of them.. im getting ready to do the yarragon market next year! YAY for me. Welpers.. i better get going now..
just thought id stop in and say hi~!

cards

2008-12-13T15:45:00.000-08:00

Hello there long time no write. Have been working on cards mainly.. just gift tags and cards. I will post some of them to friends. I have done well over 100 now.. mum said ive been going like the clappers... if only i knew what that meant! I think i need a slang dicitonary. ! hehe So for the past few weeks that is all i have been doing.. creating. I will get back to the full swing of painting..after ive used all my card stock!

Well what else.. oh i have been here a bit and there a bit.. I am heading to the city this coming thursday.. looking forward to catching up with friends. Even though the city will be chockers.

So i will write more later

broken

2008-12-07T23:59:00.001-08:00

the lap top is still broken.. i will writer more soon. I have been ok. Back to making cards etc will get back to full swing shortly

back

2008-12-01T23:23:00.001-08:00

Will write more about my adventures once the lap top is fixed..!

i am about just doig a few things here and there

wrote more later alligator

the finish line

2008-11-24T19:38:00.000-08:00

mum and I finally finished the invites. I am free to do my own thing now. Perhaps work more on my paintings. Perhaps, perhaps.I cleaned up a bit today mainly the back room. My parcel should have arrived. Or i hope at least. My craft goodies.

I was supposed to have done scrapbooking today..but that will wait til another day. Id prefer to put my energy into something productive. Not sure if i should pack up everything and just read for a few days. I don;t know.

Ive just sat around not doing much today... a little bit down but not out. Well i remembered a dream i had long ago it was o do with LOTR and a motionless horse. I cant think of any other things that happened.

seeing invites

2008-11-24T02:07:00.001-08:00

So the only thing left to do is to decorate the invites and then give them to louise when she visits this weekend. That shall be that. I signed up to do a free scrapbooking lesson. The lady that runs the store seems really nice. So that will fill my day tomorrow for a few hours.

I have a list of things i have to buy for it.. but i have to bring a few supplies. I will take a few photos not sure what of just yet. It will be a challenge to do something on the crafty side of things.

Well im off to read write more later alligator

little pieces

2008-11-23T01:22:00.000-08:00

Little by little, slowly but surely.. more invites are being assembled and put together. Got the hang of it this time.. we cut and measured everything so its been easier and all i have to do now is decorate them tomorrow.
I spoke to a friend for a while on the phone.. it was lovely to hear from her. Anyway.. im tired now even though its only 8:30am.. feel i could sleep for a while!

take care out there

albell

1 minute challenge

2008-11-18T01:17:00.000-08:00

Hello there. Today I filled my day with writing... via doing the 60second challenge

http://oneminutewriter.blogspot.com/

go there its a fantastic site. I love it so. They have heaps of questions. Makes you think and question things. Answering them. Im glad i found that site. I will do that every day from now on. Think i will start my day like that or with a tea reading and replying to letters.

I have been drawing too. Well will make a few things be on my agenda.

okie smokies i'll be off again

talk about when thinking

2008-11-17T02:16:00.000-08:00

I am reading Haruki Murakamis "WHat i think about when i talk about running" Its kinda inspired me to write down conversations i have with myself on a daily basis. Its funny I do have time to think about thinks. Mull them over. So subject matter of today is of course love. I have been writing them down with brackets around them.

ONE OF my thought has been this " somewhere perhaps a long time ago there was a stillness in her heart. The pin dropped and awoke the ghost of remembering that haunts her to the core"

Anyhow.. i better go got some more reading to do. His novel is inspiring.

albell

stunning

2008-11-16T17:58:00.000-08:00

Its absolutely stunning weather,I am enjoying the sunshine.. i must remember sunscreen or else im going to fry in the heat. So what revelation today... oh a few. I wrote the two letters..now just two more to go. I think i will stick to sending cards from now on they are a hello of a lot cheaper than letters to send overseas.

I went and picked up my picture up from the framing shop today.. it looks stunning now its cleaned and sealed and has a hook thing on the back of it. Im going to hang it in the lounge room taking my collograph down. I have to go and pick up my pictures from rosedale too.

anbyhow.. i will write more later this afternoon..

got a few things to do ish

there and back again

2008-11-15T22:16:00.000-08:00

HAVE been away for a few days. I met up with a friend in the city.. for dinner.. went to Ants Bistro.. i ordered chili and ginger chicken. Very spicy, i started with tears down my cheeks. I had to eat nearly the whole plate full. I hadnt eaten since 2ish though so i was famished. Went back to her house and sat around watching sex and the city.Something ive never really seen before.

So the next day we were up early and went and picked up her friends dog. Its a beautiful dog though. Went to the beach..it was so damned windy..i had thermals in my bag too. We had a picnic over looking the ocean,.. had fresh fruit..blueberries, strawberries and smoked cheese (oh i love it so) .. some water. It was lovely.
I sat in the car for a bit.. drawing whilst the dog had another run along the beach.

Took sunshine (the dogs name) back to Justynas friends place.. sat around there just chatting for an hour or so.. its a beautiful house and 3 dogs they have got. The 3 dogs were so cute. Then zoomed off to see Paul and Lucy for a bbq. that was lovely. Sitting around chatting for a few hours.

So that was a great weekend. I came home on the train... a group of very chatty teenagers were there... chirpy chirpy chirpy. I juswt buried myself in a Haruki Murakami novel. It passed the 2hrs home. I am still reading it. Ive been inspired to start drawing again. I came to a few realisations..this weekend. Some i wil discuss with Alison on friday.

You know if its one thing.. i feel refreshed and renewed im glad i forced myself to go. Anyhow.. its back to these invites now.. which i wil breath and live for this week. sheessshhies.

anyhow.. just thought i'd pop a note or two on here.

ive been inspired to write again.. so ive just got two more letters to pen pals.

take care out there

albell

Letters

2008-11-10T17:55:00.000-08:00

I have 3 letters to reply to only i don't really feel like replying to them all. I will. Ill start with the one that came to me first..which is my German pen pal. The one who put tea bags into her letter and they were confiscated by customs! OOoops a daisy.
Oh well. Im not paying $42 to send them back to her either! They can just be destroyed.

I am very angry with this one company that took my money and have not bothered to reply to my email. ..who owe me all my craft things i ordered. I will be making a very angry phone call later.

I went back to sleep at 9ish today and woke up at 12ish... so lazy, I didnt expect to sleep 3hrs though. I knew i was tired but not that tired. Well dad is doing my chores..ive only hung out the washing. I spoke briefly to my friend who was on her lunch break.

Well I better get going now. Might watch a movie or something.

albell

after a storm

2008-11-08T19:20:00.000-08:00

After a storm they always say there is calm. Perhaps so. Perhaps not. There is shelter. I guess. I have been dreaming but not remembering one little bit of them. I have also been a bit down, think its just family things. That has been the storm.

Where to take refuge? Where to hide? You can only hide for so long before becoming a hermit. So i took refuge in retail therapy. Today it was plants and christmas presents.
Yes christmas.. can't avoid it. So i have about half my list done.

Its a matter of posting it all around the world. Any how.. its time for me to write some letters..i have many to reply to.

love ally

out

2008-11-07T02:06:00.001-08:00

Forced myself out of the house. Went down the road and got some paper for louises invites. To finish them off. Mum will try this pink outfit on tomorrow..its a pale colour. I don't know if it will suit her but there is only one way to find out.

I only have about a very small amount in my account. Its looking pretty anemic. I have gotten a few letters but I have not responded yet..waiting for the right day. The right time. Well if there ever is a right time at the moment.

Im not happy jan...as that old ad goes. I have been drawing for a bit today, its good that its a friday. I'm glad. Welpers must go now.. sleep calls me.

darker grows the day

2008-11-05T15:58:00.000-08:00

Darker grows the day. I am feeling very blue. Family things that have been happening, its been a bit of a shit year really. I don't know what to do, where to put myself or anything. Im at a loss.

Darker is the day,

write more when i'm feeling a little less flat.

ally

ergh

2008-11-02T19:43:00.000-08:00

What a bummed out day I am having. I didnt want louise to go home...I just wanted her to stay. She needs a stack of TLC. I have time to listen and listen. Im not sure..i feel a little helpless at the moment. Its not a great feeling at all. I want to be in a few places at once

Im not sure what i should do. Anyhow.. i know i can be here. I now have 30 more invites to make.

well better go now

lub ally

agh

2008-11-01T17:19:00.000-07:00

Its that agh feeling again. This week has not gone very well at all, started out ok and ive never known me to be this down. Suppose its just a bit of everything.. I must admit though i took comfort in possibly the fattiest thing on the menu which was satay chicken noodles. I didnt care.. i devoured most of it!

My family are all going out to lunch. I might just either join them or eat leftovers from last nights tea. I don't feel like forcing myself out. So home again, i have a dvd to watch so its not so bad.

Anyhow.. better go.

albell

Wonder

2008-10-30T20:49:00.000-07:00

I wonder where my parcels of supplies has ended up? Its been nearly 2weeks since I ordered it all. I think my handbag off etsy will arrive here before then. Id be surprised if it's all a scam. Lucky I only did a direct deposit. I didn't go shopping in warragul.. i got some more labels for the label machine. They cost a pretty penny.
Somehow i have a feeling i won't be able to afford to go to the city this weekend.

Its halloween today..something that is recognised here by some kids..this year I am ready for them.. i have a bowl of lollies in wrappers. The dog goes a bit nuts and it drives me up the wall.OOOH perhaps i am turning into that quirky lady at the end of a road.

So i have to make more than affirmations. I have to write a few things out.I got to use all these felt pieces to make pictures to express my emotions/ my fears... it was good. I felt like a kid again. I can't wait for Roman and Nicola to arrive.

Anyhow Im too tired to make gnocchi tonight so i am making it tomorrow for lunch.

catch yer later alligator

half a world away

2008-10-29T22:05:00.000-07:00

Today has just flown by, I don't know how..or where the time went... I am making a salad with kababs tonight.It is a mushroom and spinach salad.. from Donna Hay of course. Looks like its going to rain even though its warm out side still.

I wrote some letters, posted them off. It looks like a storm is on its way. Weather or not it happens is another matter...as we need rain. Tomorrow I have Allison, so im away to warragul..that will make the day pass quickly. I found that book store too..so i will be going there also.

I won an extra $20 credit on my phone.. thats great.. im sure that will be zapped up. Anyhow.. I am having a little tipple at the moment. I better go start on this salad..

albell

sleep in

2008-10-29T02:17:00.000-07:00

I was up at 8am nothing unusual about that but then I went back to bed and slept until 11am Soo lazy of me. As I onlyu had about $4 to my name and couldnt afford to go out anywhere.Stayed home and got stuck into my paintings. Its going to take a little bit of work to fix some of them up.

I got a messaage from my friend Andrea asking if i'd like to have another exhibition next year. I would but im not sure if i want it to be solo. I am thinking about it. Just want to test out a new venue. in a new area.

Let's see I have a little bit of work to do before i go and get Alice framed. Oh its a little funny I got a letter from one of my pen pals..customs had pulled it a side and confiscated two tea bags that she had put in there and left a note to say they were dangerous and need to be destroyed.

So i better tell my pen pals not to send tea to me anymore!

Little scooter is asleep next to me.. and its a bit cold. So she is snuggled into towel. I have not cooked anything of note lately. So im going to attempt to tomorrow.. going to make some basic rice rolls. I figure no cooking and theyll be healthy for us ti have. If they work i will put the recipe up if not then I won't

I have House on and i'e been reading some more of that Kathy Lette book. Well i better get going got a few things to do...

nighty night

Happy Birthday

2008-10-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

hAPPY Birthday to my little nephew Roman!

So today I did do a few things.. mainly reading a book. None the less kept me occupied.

will write more later alligator

shopping

2008-10-26T17:34:00.000-07:00

So instead of doing the invites... went shopping. Think my bank account is well below a healthy amount. Oh well. doesn't matter i guess. I get paid thursday and tomorrow i don' have to go anywhere. I keep walking every day now. Just to get the mail. The things from etsy arrived.. real cute and well made, im happy with them. I will buy from her again. Meanwhile i found a handbag that i'm going to get with this coming pay. Then that will be the end of my spending.

I got the Kathy Letts chick lit book.. its new..and i loved the way she interviewed on tv.. she seems funny. Her book is a little over the top with humor. Thats the way she interviewed too. I posted all my letters including the cat humor to Odd. I have not done any of my cat cartoons in a while.. now ive started back up again.

So i fill a little off colour at the moment. Im sure i'll be fine soon, had a good weekend.The thing on the gate wont shut poperly i tried to fix it but lucky the wind is gong the other way.

Im inside got satched. catch yer later alligaotr

Hey out there

2008-10-23T15:55:00.001-07:00

hey out there.. its only mid morning... and I feel so sad. I woke up with a deep sense of sadness. I guess I know why inside. Think its just as they say "woe is me" . I keep thinking about things..the more i mull over my thoughts the more sad I feel. So i've got to look to the future more.

It's hard to though..well no make that easy to.I have a lot ahead of me. A lot to look forard to. Where would u have time frozen if you could? What steps would you have taken differently? What split decision would you have made? They re some of my questions floating around. I do know where i come undone. I can't turn back time.

ANYhow...what is ahead of me? Oh a few things i feel. Fun to be a birdesmaid...I guess. So much for it going to be 25 today as my brother says "hell no". Looks like a cold cold day outside. I need some sheets of card stock again. I have all the fancy smancy papers.. i'm out of stock for the other.

I sayed up stamping last night... loads of fun..! Well I better skidaddle down the street and do a few things

albell.

Own Thing

2008-10-23T02:46:00.000-07:00

Own thing. Made a "few" cards today. Using good ink. The cheaper ink as ive so discovered doesn't stick so good to the paper. Its doesn't set right. Smudges so I have to throw a stack out. *sighs* I should follow my mums rule... "quality, its all about quality". Im so tired. As i stayed up til 1am again making cards like a mad woman. I discovered that the good black ink even sticks to satin ribbon. So ive made one up with a butterfly print on it, put it onto a card.. very pretty. Should take a photo or two.

Well im tired as anything... so i'll say goodnight.

nighty night

Sleep In

2008-10-22T02:37:00.000-07:00

Today I got up at 6ish... then went back to sleep atr about 10 til noon. So lazy, but i was soooooo tired. Think its cause i got up and stayed up til 1am. I watched a bit of tv.. then went down the road, sent the beads off to the lady.

Im using this photo again as i love it i think those flowers are beautiful.So i only did a little bit done today. Nothing much.

Anyhow. House is on now.. so i'm going to go watch that.

the finish line

2008-10-21T02:54:00.000-07:00

Finally finished all the invites.. im ever so glad. Now for a working bee on saturday when mum and I are going to louises place and we are going to write the addresses onto the envelopes so then when november arrives (holy cow it will be in a weekish) they will be ready to send.

So my own thing. YAY I can start tomorrow on cards. Which I look forward to. I got a little carried away with buying things off the internet. I dont have a credit card so it was all done by direct bank deposit. Its a good thing to not have one.. due to me and i know that would = debt. Debts I could not pay i imagine.

So i ordered all this paper and beads etc. Though i bit left over. Im sure i shall use up all the goodies. I have done some lovely gift cards, cards. I just need the cellophane bags for them. Which i put an order in for. At the moment they look a little un professional inside snap lock bags.

I am also getting some custom made jewellery done..we have got some gorgeous beads so i asked the lady who we constantly buy her work off if shed like to make some bracelets, necklaces etc and she said yep. So now to take photos of them then send them to her. I cant wait to see what she will make.

Yes thoughts and things still buzzing round my head. I only have to get a few things for dinner tomorrow from down the road. Anyhow.. its coming round to nana o'clock time for me to go nighty night i think.

ciao

one step

2008-10-17T01:36:00.000-07:00

Taking a step forward... thinking of having my own little etsy store. Im not sure yet though.We gIot this beautiful thank you card off Louise today. Its just lovely. I thanked her.. got out one of my cards and will post it on monday.

I made some stunning cards some are really beautiful. I will take some photos of them too. I still have ideas buzzing around in my head. Anyhow..

i better get going im so tired ive not read any of my book yet in the past 4 days. Might have an early night and go read...

catch ya soon

ally

Hats

2008-10-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

I got a hat today just $8 a bargain. Its not a fashion statement. More of a practical thing. I walked down the road. They were having their 3hr sales on. I got some ribbon, I have to match it up with some paper. I took my picture to the framers. Its getting done. Only needs the back put on.. the glass to be cleaned and some wire across the back. Mum is going to see if she can have it put up at her work.

I worked out $1 cards and 50c cards they are all wrapped up in bags. I need to get the bags. The scrapbooking lady is yet to make up a price for me. It such a shame that the shop wasn't busy. I bought some coloured paper.. a few sheets of card stock.

I saw some great stamps i thought about getting them but resisted as i have so many. So i have to cut the insides for the inviites. Then glue em. Im not going to cut my hair til after the wedding. Mayb a trim but that will be it. I thought about a style but i dont know.. my face is too fat to be cut short.

So now I better get back to it.

Almost there

2008-10-14T17:22:00.000-07:00

Almost there.. almost finished the invites for my sisters wedding. Only about 10 more to decorate and then we will put the inserts into them on saturday. I was a bit naughty and made a few cards from the paper i bought yesterday. They are real pretty. Especially the one i made for kylie.I love it. I got some real cute butterfly stickers too. Which i will use sparingly.

I bought this junky bracelet too.. the butterflies are cite on it.. so im going to break them off and use them in cards. they are not too heavy.I am so tired today..think its just me. Perhaps the coffee will ease the headache. Or a nap probably wil

ribbon galore

2008-10-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

Opshop shopping is so much fun. You just never know what you will find. I found a beautiful doily which im going to cut up and use. As well as a cool bag which im going too sew onto a bag and sell it at the market for $8 or something.

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Ribbons. upon beautiful ribbon. I got some stunning ribbon from spotlight today.. they had 20% off. I also bought a girly stanley knife too so i can finish off the invites. We have got the pink inserts now. All i need is a lilac or strong purple colour.

U have to see the material bought for herself for a dress for the wedding its stunning. I will take a photo of it. Have not hit the gym yet. Must start. I got gym clothes hiding in the closet. Gt to drag them out and dust them off. I have good sneakers.

Anyhow.. ribbons glorious ribbons. Some stunning colours. Lush. anyhow im tired am off to bed.

seeing butterflies

2008-10-10T22:56:00.000-07:00

Mum and I have decorated all the pink invites now.. we just need to put the insides in. They look rather pretty, very happy with them. I hope louise and allen will be. Somehow it got to 5pm I didnt realize the time. It slipped by. Im seeing butterflies and lots of them. Pity they have no more of the prettier ones. We have ordered some off the net though. Some nice sized ones. They should be here by monday/ tuesday.

It's been a productive day. I will get going now. Fix something up for dinner maybe.

albell

Busy Bee

2008-10-09T21:32:00.000-07:00

Ive been a bit slack with writing here. Just have not felt like typing much. Ive been having trouble sleeping.. waking up at 3 and going back to bed at 5 waking up at 9ish.
I hate that, then by the time 5pm rocks around im bloody tired again.

So lets see now.. mum and I have been working on the invites for the wedding. We have found a magic source for glue... a spray on adhesive. It makes them look more polished and is better than double sided tape and all that bleedin glue. So instead of just one being done in an hour we have nearly done 20ish ..well the basics anyhow. Just the outside. Still have to cut all the paper for the inside.

So today has been an extra productive day we should have them done by sunday. We ran out of spray so ive stopped whilst mum has gone to get more things. We have plenty of butterflies.. but these little ones we have are cute. they are a lightweight silver.
I phoned the shop back up to see if they had anymore.. they said "no sorry, we don't have anymore. Are u the lady that bought them all?" "Yes, I am" Oh well. So much for that.

When we went to pakenham to the eureka bead store... i found these stunning clay flower beads that i can glue on cards. They are so pretty. I like them muchly. I went to the scrapbooking shop invested in these beautiful stamps.. lovely birds and butterflies. I got some cheap ink but found that that doesnt stick it slides off the cards. So i got some better ink. A little more expensive, i hope it works.

I start the gym on monday.. the local one.. not curves.. but reps. They don't have a joining fee or anything..and they don't seem to be pretentious. I may even take a class or two in aerobics.. although i know how unco i am.

It is such a lovely day. So i'm in my working clothes. Feel like some noodles for dinner. I don't have them often but i cant be bothered cooking.. i doubt mum will want to cook. Anyhow I better get back to dabbling with the crystals trying to work out some sort of pattern on them..

love albell

Fab time

2008-10-07T15:28:00.000-07:00

Friday went to the city to have a girly night with a few friends.. so what happens ..nearly everyone bails on me. So i went to a friends house..and stayed the night.. we sat there eating copious amounts of junk food and having a few drinks watching house til about 1amish.

So we just watch a few more episodes of house in the morning then I go and meet up with another friend...went for lunch and to the tea shop then magnation. I was like a packhorse carrying everything... next time i wont take so much stuff don't think. Then I met up with another friend and went to the Dream festival.. saw some large sculptures and all that jazz. It was good. Bar me having a panic attack.

Went back to her house and had pasta with pesto for dinner. It was a lovely time.. sat around watching the good old Bill and eating brownies.The next day went to the camberwell market... it was fun..saw lots of things. even bought a few things for cards . I scored an Olga Berg bag for $10. Thought that was a steal. I liked the print on it all coloured flowers.... lovely.

Came home on the sunday afternoon train. Anyhow.. I think that will do for the moment, i shall write more later.

ciao for now

Weekend

2008-10-05T18:29:00.000-07:00

sorry i was away for the weekend.. i will write more later after some coffee that i need to keep me awake.

albell

cardaholic

2008-09-30T23:09:00.000-07:00

I am truly a cardaholic.. ive gone a little ballistic. You should see the colours. All types.. ive made some arty cards and some neat scrapbooking type cards. Some of them are so beautiful.. but they are for market, will photograph them tomorrow and put them up.

So now I am taking a break. Just sitting here thinking at the moment. I have to work on myself a bit more.

ribbons

2008-09-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

I am seeing ribbons loads of ribbons.. i am able to work on my other cards for the market today. I bought some lovely coloured papers all sorts, i have some quirky ideas floating around my head. I visualizing it all as i picked and plucked out the colours.

I will take a few photos of my cards later and put them up. They are very pretty. I will be prepared for the next market. I managed to get some plastic slips for them so that icky fingers wont get on them.

write more later alligator!

slightly odd

2008-09-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

Ive had a slightly odd day today... went for monrnin coffe/brunch.. went to the post office..( my fav place to go)I have a few letters to write. Had a whopping latte also.
So im wired for sound.

Now I have to listen to this meditation cd, and start on my resume. Ive been a slackarse. Anyhow, not really up to writing much today..

which is slightly odd

albell

footy fever

2008-09-27T02:01:00.001-07:00

Today its footy fever...the grand final. hawthorn vs geelong... quite a good game.. yes ok i admit it...i watch footy sometimes..but i prefer cricket. Me and sport? Hardly on the same side. Everyone cramming in their shopping before 2pm, then after that must of been a real ghost town.

Perfect time to go and shop. Not really. I saving money.. well being a bit frugal.. its not like me though..im usually spend thrift. However I am trying to save for either my next exhibtion/ an overseas trip to see a few friends. I m unsure yet.

I used to hold these pot luck dinners. I miss having them. Everyone brings a dish to share..its a nice thing to do. Usually I used to over cater and make a few dishes of sweet and savory.. to balance it out. Generally used to work out. Anyhow.. i must move on in life.. perhaps move back to the city? No idea yet. We shall see.

Well I guess... im bloody tired so i may head to bed shortly. Oh this painting i did well its not so bad. Im still working on it.

night night

fireworks

2008-09-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

I called this piece fireworks as that is what it looks like. It reminds me of the sky lit up at night when there is an event.

beautiful butterfly

2008-09-25T17:18:00.000-07:00

I made a few of these.. and im still going to make more. One i sent to my friend in new zealand..she likes it a lot. I will be doing more of them,. i want to do a massive piece of it.. and get it framed...but i'm finishing off everything else first.

I couldnt sleep last night..got up and made cards until midnight. Then went to bed.Funny ive been waking up at 7am lately. None of this 9am buisness.

seeing squares

2008-09-24T23:40:00.000-07:00

Seeing squares cutting up all the paper and felt for the invites. SO they are ready to go.. i then got distracted by making other cards. For the market which i don't think dad wants to do..i do though maybe i can just go and have my own stall. Athough i'm not sure.

Perhaps it will give me a chance to get a whole lot of new stock. More butterfly pictures.Get a few things fixed up to sell. Think i should do a melbourne market... or perhaps i should get my own shop on etsy. Im not sure i know how to run my own little buisness... abn number tax etc. Taking hold of my life isnt as easy as u think it would be.

welp think i better stop myself there...

cya later alligator

Chockers

2008-09-24T17:29:00.000-07:00

Went to the city yesterday.. yes there sure is a buzz about it... a vibe.. its certainly is a great time to go to the show. Or be in melbourne. Its too crowded for my liking though, especially since the train was sardine city. Sooooo packed.Nearly every seat was filled. Dad got us a spot on the handicapped seat which was good.

Im glad i came home on the train i did...as the train dad was on on his way home well they had to add 3 coaches from dandenong. The question is why dont they put more carriages on? they are mental. They know its the kids holidays.. and grandfinal week. Sheeesssshhh u think they'd learn. Happens all the time.

What else? Well I just did a few things around the house. I realise i have nearly every art supply for a long while all bar black ink...which i need for another picture. lol but i can paint the others like i have been doing. Ive been trying to finish off the ones i started. The red abstract needs to be less squarish and a little more organic.

I better put in some hours on painting/. invites

albell

around

2008-09-22T17:05:00.000-07:00

Sloiwly, slowly, im getting starter on the invites. Yesterday however I spent making some beautiful cards using the felt flowers i had stitched together a long time ago. I placed a pearl in the middle of them.. they look great. Now I have half a box full now. I think I will just take cards..a few bits of artwork and perhaps a painting or two. My books too. Including archer.. i think its time i made some shelf space...and ive read nearly all his novels cept his prison diaries. Even if i just sell them at $2 thats ok too.

Ive been feeling a little low even though ive got a lot to do. I looked at my felt pictures that i had made .. i still think its good. I had high hopes for it to get them photographed... and create a book from it. I was looking for something else at the time of course... i get distracted easily. When Roman is here i'll eable to read it to him. That will be great he can learn about animals then..even if they are doing silly things.

So I was up at 4 this morning.. so i sat and tried to write a letter... didnt last very long maybe half a page before my eyes became like curtains closing. Went to bed, woke up at 9am.. if that happens tomorrow... then i won't be going to the city.
I will stay home and make the sweet potato and ricotta gnocchi.

Well its 10:30am now.. i better make tracks to the invites..

ally

Aghhhhh

2008-09-21T17:40:00.000-07:00

Poor little scooter had to have most of her teeth out, she must of been in pain for quite some time. SHes slowly getting back into fine form.Im glad shes better. Nothing exciting about the weekend. Went out for morning tea..got the ribbon i need for louises invites.. anyhow...

must get going now.. force myself to paint.

albell

spot of shopping

2008-09-19T01:17:00.000-07:00

Went out today shopping, Came home with lots of things for everyone. I got myself some things, some to use for art type things. Went a little on the crazy side of clothing, seemed the lovely weather makes everyone crawl out from their winter hideouts and get a summer/spring wardrobe.

It was packed.. i think i'll hibernate for a few weeks... its school holidays now and all the wee tackers will be everywhere. Specially on public transport. Anyhow.. im quite tired.

write more soon
albell

loop

2008-09-17T21:15:00.000-07:00

Things kept looping and looping around in my head last night and I could not get to sleep. It was mainly how I have treated men that had walked into my life and how I treated them all... mainly abused them all. With some form of awful behaviour... so its no wonder I'm not far off from spinsterhood. I know there are learning curves but there are things that i have now learned from that..well look at me i'm holding a candle to my past again.

It has been many years since moving home I have crushed some of my inner spirit. Sounds silly doesn't it? So many wrong choices, so much for being a kind person. I so wish. Well we all know how how that sentence ends don't we? Yeah *sighs* I keep wondering with the what ifs. It was playing in a loop like a recording..round and around..and finally got up and decided to numb out by playing some scrabble.

I think it has a lot to do with the fact I have no friends here.. and I so wish i did. It would make life a bit more interesting. Its not like i've pushed myself out under "the spotlight" or anything. Ive noticed the only greeting i get is from the bus driver and a few regular passengers. I guess a small greeting is better than nothing.

I found the absolutely cutest piece of scrap booking paper in the shop today....it has an owl on it. I think i will make Romans birthday card from that. I got a letter today from a pen friend in usa. A short note., the inside of the the envelope is beautiful..so im going to recycle it and make a card from the innards.

Scooter has to go get checked again tonight. I am going to attempt Gillian recipe. So far the track record cooking her food has not been successful. *sighs* I must be doing something wrong. Of course. Cooking is rewarding as it is experimental and tests patience .. I guess its like gardening (a little bit like art too) (ok ok u can apply it to anything)

I need some more tea , my stock is quite low. Well only 4 plus 3 different types of chai. So yes i have sort of got a range but not wide enough. I am almost out of honey bush, which i love soo much. It only has the life of about 2 more pots. I wonder how they get the names of paints..its astounding i would love to name colours of paints.

Anyhow..

better go

ciao

hmm

2008-09-15T17:43:00.000-07:00

Hmm let me see here.. i found a great recipe for a spinach, mushrooms and feta frittata
it looks good.. all i did was i had these mushrooms left over from dr gilians u r what you eat book.. (her recipes are quite time consuming) (lots of prep time) and the mushroom stroganoff i will have to make it again with te right mushrooms.. as i experimented with just a few sorts and some bean shoots we had in the fridge.. they have a nutty flavor to them. Lets just say the mushroom goop from last night (that i ended up blending with rice) (sort of risottoish) has now been turned into a frittata. I hope it will work. I felt like something hot for lunch. As its only a cold 13 today.. most likely snowing on the mountains.

I have the heater on, ive got mum addicted to boston legal. Hehe... she is flying through the episodes. I only have 3 discs to watch..mum as the whole of first season..most of second season and nearly all the 3rd season. I know what she'll be doing this weekend a marathon Boston legal session. WHich i don't mind wathcing over again. I still get laugh out of it.

The smell of the frittata is wonderful. I hope it tastes nice.. as i really chucked it all together ..on a whim that it might work. must go out later and get my tattslotto ticket.. something has been niggling at me to go and buy one... i walk past and tink i should..i should ..i should... so i will be brave and head out into the cold and get one. Its absolutely a miserable day. We need the rain though, i hope it is falling over the catchment areas.

Its all good i guess.

write more later gater

Tulip

2008-09-13T01:02:00.000-07:00

I like this photo of the lonely tulip among the sea of purple/blue.

anyhow

ciao

Bright Day

2008-09-13T00:53:00.000-07:00

Its so bright a very spring like day. 25 and lovely. The suns out..the happy daffodils singing in a choir of voices thanking the blue sky . I like this photo a lot. Dad loves posing. He is a bit photogenic. A character and a half.

I did not paint.. ive been reading the paper a bit for a change. I got some clothes and im happy with them. Athough a white shirt is a bit risky given the way i tend to eat... spills all over the place. Oh dear. Oh well. I also got a beautiful blue t-shirt to boot.

iikkkyyy

2008-09-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

I am trying to cook from The Are What You Eat cook book. So off I go following the recipe... blending it all up... chucking the chic peas, onion,garlic carrot etc. Mushed up.. a bit on the ermm gooy side of things.. whacked a little flour in to the mix.. and then put a test run into the oven... bleeeehhh talk about just a hint of coriander and chic pea. Thats all you could taste.. soo iiicckky,

So off i go again.. grab the bottle of sweet chili sauce and put a shit load of it to work.. i must say.. i like them now... they are not as bland.. i think i better eat them with mum. Though they are healthy for you.. i will serve them with salad... but im not sure what to do with 16 of them! I trying to change my eating habits however.. with this cookbook..may put me off food all together. Funny but iikkyyy.

I have been drinking so much water, am eating less.. there is just one element that i better add to this: i think we all know...
walking and the gym.

I have had birds tweeting all the time.. telling me their sad songs..and happy tunes..Shheshthe dog is back in fine form. well anyhow..better get cracking

ciao
for
now

bag em up

2008-09-11T21:01:00.000-07:00

Bag em up.. its spring.. bag em up...so i went through my wardrobe.. and got a bag of clothes that i don't wear anymore a couple of books and a few odds and ends too. I went into the garage too.. found a familiar looking folder.. had a lot of crap..but boy did i write every single day to myself.. most of it is teenage crap.. bagged em up and threw them out..all accept this little story which i shall work on a little more. I got a B plus on it... they wrote my spelling kept me from getting an A. Funny that.

Bag em up threw them out... rewarding in one sense... goodbye clutter... hello zen.
Well not really, see I am still keeping letters from friends and reading a book called The Tibetan Art of Thinking. Its really opening my eyes up. I am also reading a travel log about a guy who travels around india. Plus a whimsical novel too. So i have heaps of reading to do this weekend. Now ive freed up my time from that door stopper of an Archer novel.

bag em up and ship em out

Holding On

2008-09-09T06:16:00.000-07:00

Holding on...clutching at many straws...survivng...eating... just relaxing in general. No stress... holding on...to those things I can't have, reflecting back I was so snooty..(yes im still a tea snob loud and proud) even though I came from a small town that has quite a reputation for unemployed people etc. So what. I realize i lack confidence... that used to come in the shape of a bottle...

swig
swig
swig

Holding on to those memories where Ive just been smashed..no longer... poof gone... i dont drink that often anymore... and i certainly don't get drunk anymore. Maye a quiet tipple.. So the past is a little jaded. Mainly I have been having flash backs to uni days,...and its been doing my head in. I cant stop the images that echo so vividly. I usewd to think that no one found me attractive.. i think thats where i was wrong..my friend once handed me a a queen of hearts card...and smiled and said "thats what you are" Its funny any heart i had back then. I was shy and alcohol it a great thing for coming out of ones shell. Then there are moments of drinking and having no memory. Love truely blinded me in those teenage years..and i couldnt see it.

Holding on to that... i think i deserve to be the joker card now.. or a hermit card in the tarot deck. Im slowly emerging from 4years of anti social behaviour. I dont think. Letting my nails grow long...and bloody get cracking losing weight. Now i feel alone in my struggle. I know somewhere i am not the only one like this.

Holding on to clutter... i have a shitload of clutter i need to get rid of.. so it will be a BIG clean out. I want to start again, renew. So its almosst midnight now and im a little tired.

holding on to awake, holding on to sleep,holding on to dreams on wishes to keep.

goodnight

sleep tight..

sleepy head

2008-09-06T23:24:00.000-07:00

I went to bed t about 8:30pm last night,,, woke up at 3:30am then went back to sleep in til 9am..so relatively big big sleep. It is fathers day.. was supposed to go out for lunch ..but we just stayed home. So its home again friend.

bird talk

2008-09-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

Birds chattering.. sunny 18 degree days;..all the flowers come out from their slumber.
winterous days..in memory the dreams sway. crowning glory bing that green green grass.

SO what now. Well i dont feel like writing that much right now...

write more later alligator

Scatty

2008-09-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

I have had such a scatty day.. started out talking to my internet friend that i have not heard from for about 4months or more. Out of the woodworks they climb.Then i walked down... stunning day for a walk.. had lunch.,..the usual..subway for lunch. Cheap and cheerful.

Swung by my regular hangout (the post office) sent a few things to a few friends, some pen pal letters and a painting. I hope they will like what i sent. There were a few letters for me.. both great... and lovely . Especially the letter from angiebear. Filled with an array of whimsical things. Also my pen pal sent me a lovely simple bracelet.

So I sat with some music on and wrote a poem.. something just well just felt right to pen a poem after about 5years of chucking it in.... so want to read it? Ok here goes...

BEACON,

Could i ever shine from within
if you saw my pale pale skin
a beacon in the night
a bird about to take flight

Supressng feelings here and there
talking with no care
music, i would dance
no man i gave a chance

Happy to be self'
friends are a form of wealth
didnt care about money
no sugar and no honey

Vibrant then, now at 30
reflecting back and getting shirty
I was always breaking hearts
and forever dodging cupids darts

So now alone i ponder
many battles to conquer
fighting back tears
trying to turn back the years

Moving forward is not rare
to keep avoiding my nightmares
and living dreams
from within the beacon gleams

ally miles

So I said ive been scatty as a catty.. had a few tears here and there.Now ive got my coffee... and well..i better get going now..im making roast tomato soup.

love albell

Interesting

2008-09-03T17:12:00.000-07:00

Experimental food.. that is for sure. Under mums instructions... i cooked up pasta got a can of creamy chicken soup... poured it over the top....added cheese, asparagus, some other veggies... and whacked it in the oven...vala: pasta bake.It actually tasted alright. Im having the rest of it for lunch today. Sometimes I hate not having a microwave! Oh well.. you get used to it, right?

So yesterday.. i found out most of the shops including Aldi don't open til 9am... grrrr so i walked around and around the town..caught the bus home. KMart used to open at 8:30am.. but i guess its not christmas yet. (thanks goodness) doesnt stop shops from putting in a row of tinsel, tape etc. which i noticed. Man its only september.they should only be flogging fathers day to death. not planting a seed that xmas is near.
Thats my gripes over.

So im sitting here with a lovely tea... im going to go for a walk as its 18 and sunny. Such beautiful weather. I think i might even try to do some potting up of plants that are on the porch. Ive been painting most of the morning.. just stopped for a tea and a bit of break and a rant.

I am buying a few more things off etsy. Some beads and earrings. I am going to get the photos off the camera so i can clear it, and start photographing my work again.
So I have'nt read other peoples blogs as of late.. i think i will this afternoon. Need to "catch up" with them.. and whats been going on.

I feel sad right now.. I was crying to some of the music on so u think you can dance. Think its just me being a little bit emotional these days. I feel deeply sad. On the edge of crying. Well... I will get going now.. things to do, places to go... tea to drink..all that jazz....

lovely bubbly.

albell

spring has sprung

2008-09-02T18:32:00.001-07:00

Bring on this glorious weather... its so lovely,, 15... sunny and just warm enough to paint.. which i am pleased about. I did some more butterfly prints.. on some cardboard.. in blue this time.. I am going to use this lovely green I have got too.. perhaps tomorrow..

I have been working on a tree painting too.. its ok.. but itll take some work to get it to where i want it. I am a little tired already..and its only nearly noon. I guess ive been working all morning. The shops dont open here until 9am anymore. Its really annoying, but better than singapore where nothing is open until 11am.

I got these cute bird stickers from the warehouse. Sooo cute. I just had a coffee so that should wake me up. A little but anyhow. I gots to go write more alter alligator

weekend

2008-08-31T20:19:00.000-07:00

Had a great weekend. Went to the city.. had a lovely meal and then drinks after on brunswick st. I miss it, its my old haunt. Well of course I miss the city in general. However its not too far away.

I likes the food that was served in particular these peas that were in this afghanie sauce... they were so delicious... i loved them..the others didnt really like them so i ate a whole bowlful. It didnt look like it would be that filling but it actually was.
So i feasted on four different dishes.. plus four different starters. I must say i hadnt been there for about 10years.. and yet its still going its been open since 1983 it was the first afghan food place to open and for it to still be going now is terrific.

Sunday rocks around and i just hung out with catherine and david. It was nice to just sit around chatting. I left on the afternoon train home. I didnt go shopping.. or anything like that.. just came straight home. Funny i was meant to get some tea but thought it could wait til next time. I will take cat there and let her choose two that i will pay for. That is her brithday present plus the cards i made.

At the moment it is a monday afternoon and I am sipping on miss jasmine tea. Its so yummy. Mum hates it.. i like it..as its a gentle jasmine not a stinky one..as its blended with green tea and other flowers. Its such a beautiful day today.. im impressed first day of spring and its put on a real show..bright sunny but really bloody cold at the same time.

So i have been painting all morning... being productive.. putting a background onto one of the canvasses i have got. Its going to be beautiful..im going to take my time with this one.. perhaps sketch it all out. I also mucking around with ink also. I will take some photos later. Well I think ive had a good lunch break.. time to get back to it..

love albell

now and again

2008-08-28T02:20:00.000-07:00

I have not made much today. I have done little.Got a letter from a pen pal. Worked on cards a little bit then painted a few canvas boards. Ready to go tomorrow.

cardaholic

2008-08-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

So I have been working on my cards the past few days. Trying to get some more done. My new challenge.. is writing an art cv.. how the hell im supposed to do that is a mystery to me. I think I need some help. I will try and write one.. havent done one in absolute years. Have not needed to until now. I cant cold canvas places without something to hand them!

So project ally is underway. I also got some photocopies of some of my art work. Think i need to replace the ink cartridges now! ooopppss a daisy. Oh well. I am attepmting my first roast today.. hope i don't poison us. Cause i've been known to do that with meat. I cant get it together.

Had a scare last night with Oliver.. he was dribbling from the mouth... and being sick everywhere.. we took him to the vet.. who gave him some injections.. and told us he had been poisoned. Not sure from what though. His temperature was almost he highest it can possibly be... I thought he was going to die. Not so.. we took him home and he is back to his normal self. He was cuddly when he was blue. Thank goodness he is ok. Poor little OL OL.

I better go. Got a meal to cook.

albell