shadow

These dark days i have been shaken to the core and slowly it has ripped into my heart... the long awaited snow...comesin and melts this sorrow i have been feeling..
letters... await to take flight intothe air. Who knows where is the wind shall blow and take me next...i may still be lying there under that tree...where once i was woken by a stranger... we sat and talked about my art and poetry..how i miss those days of being so free. Who stops me? I stop me. Its these twisted state of my mind. Trying to balance the dark and light . It all crashes down around me, somewhere far off i hear a dolphins voice and i close my eyes and dream im standing in that sea.



when is it we learn to breathe its like waking up to nature.......


beautifully.


now that i am enveloped in a sea of stars mantled like a child to the cold..

i wish thee a good night



from the


ally

update

Today i have been feeling a stack down. Its been a while since ive written here.. oh well. Thought id blog today. what has been happening:

*made heaps of cards... for the market stall. Only sold under $10 worth. I am going to continue going to the yarragon one. Including one held at the school.

*started a herb garden... they all look tiny but it will look great once in full flourish. Basil, thyme, garlic, chives, mint, peppermint, catnip, tansy, majoram, corriander, flat leaf parsley, curly leaf parley,and sage, oragano, varigated oragano so far... they are all small.. ill have to watch the mint so it doesnt take over the garden..same with the cat grass. Id love to grow some lemon grass and a few other herbs that i dont have. Its a big ;patch.. ive lost the book i had.. i was going to plant them in some kind of order.. i lost the paper that i had it written on... plus Im growing some of them from seed.

*Growing flowers from seed too.. enough to run a small flower stand i think.. dad asked if i was going to open a florist shop with the amount ive got. Some have not come up yet, though i seperated the chillies and have 14 plants.. some of which i shall give away.

*went to my uncles wedding. Which was great brigette looked a million dollars in her wedding dress. It was a great day too. I helped cater for it.. made 80 mini cup cakes. Decorated them all.

*went to the city

* spent a lot of time drawing put a folio together.

*helping to paint the house at weekends with mum... fun fun fun. Got to have it done by the time nicola gets here...ergh deadline!

*nicola, trond and roman are coming out here for christmas.

*looking forward to a holiday by the beach too.

and thats about it for now. I have been experimenting with markers and watercolours lately. Thats my pet project. Anyhow... will write more later alligator.

albell

owies

Owies..i have had my wisdom tooth removed...it hurts like hell. Got a sore jaw...owies..cant make any goodies til next weekish or so. oH WELL.. will be sticking to a diet of mush and warm stuff. So i think i shall go sleep and hope i dont have nightmares. So i dont tknow if u read this anymore..oh well..goodnight.


ally

cupcakes

I have been experimenting with cupcakes. TODAY WAS AN OFF COLOUR haeve y for them. I atttempted some weirdarse recipe chai tea cupcakes..they have the texture of muffins. I am making choc-mocha ones tomorrow. I just love to bake..and tis the right season after all and have found some amazing things to put on them. I owe credit to a few books i have been looking at for inspiration.


Well i will write more later alligator.



ally

long time

Log time, not sure if anymone reads this anymore. I have gone .h
a bit cabin fever ish. Im not sure where to go or what to do. Well i have been drawing a hell of a lot. Which is good. Sold a few pieces. I have to get a pal psyaccount. So i am still seeing my psychologist and an a seeing my case manager.
er p

Im not sure.

anyhow

catch yer later.
i made pumpkin soup vyor dinner i was a bit heavy handed with the curry powh
der.


ergh

ally

opening

So many new shops are opening here.. I thinkthat is a good thing. Heaps and heaps are about to open.. even an art store.. (golly gee) Not that i need any more art supplies. I have plenty,just need another sketch pad. Its mum birthday and Im got her some earrings plus will get her some flowers tomorrow. A nice bunch of iris or somethingt that is in season, no stinky lillies or anything.


So what now for lil ol me? Not sure im alil better than what i was .

darker grows the day

a line from nick cave song... i know.. but thats how it feels. I guess we are not into the depths/ heart of winter yet. Anyhow...i have been reading and scrabbling..and painting. etc.. lala


anyhow..

i will write more tomorrow.

albell

out of

So i have not written in some time. Since my whinge. Lets see now.. I havezeen painting a llittle bit, taking photos sometimes. i m going to buy adobe photoshop this weekend. So i can work on tweaking the photos ive taken.
t
I have no seen louise since about easter...so look forward to her coming home with allen tomorrow night... Ive been lazin about. Tonight it will be me attempting to cook meat for about the first time.. ergh..um if i get food poisoning it will be my fault. Mum said t marrinade them t them in mustard and brown sugar...and put them in the oven. ..

So im going to try that..also cut up al the veggies already... mash with carot and broccoli. Out of this..i am reading this book about sracbble..by of all people Darren Hinch... (i know shame shame shame) ... i am also reading paul Coehleo newie.. the winner stands alone. Its prett dark..the dark side of hollywood really.. the dark that lies in all of us.

I have been playing heaps of scrabble my rating is up. A little. I am maintaining a 62% rate of winning. I dont always go to the beginner spot more of a casual player.
So yeps. I am getting my hair cut in a few weeks time too.

I hope to visit the city sometime too. Its the only thing about not being able to drive... is bloody pt everywhere. Oh well u get sometime. So now.. well.. i better go put the oven on...

ciao for now

love ally

home body

home bod ny..been at home a lot.. Have not written in here as much my as i should. I have had my 31st birthday. Now. So that was a quiet family do this year. Did not feel like celebrating it. Toe place we went for food it took an horur to be served our food.. i think they were out fishing hunting and shooting for it.

Anyhow thats my gripe. Have not done or achieved very much as of late. Lets see now.. nope nothing. A few paintings,a few photos. I got a lot of birthday cards...which is nice. Have had a very quiet days.

One day folds into another...and another and another. ergh..oh well that happens at times. Well i will write more to my neglected blog later..

omlette

instead of ke a giant quiche turned out like a giant omlette damn I took more photos today. Cant post them on here... for somer reason.

mucking around

Soi found myself with a little cabin fever... i picked up the camera and popped on some makeup and began taking photos. .. its good. I love it. Today i used mums pearls, a shawl i bought from denmark and then the parasol that tammy got me from china. I like this photo..i took heaps butonly end up with about 3! Im in high spirits again. Just waiting for the rug to be pulled out from under me again

well lets see.. no plans for birthday just might let this one fly by with just the family.
*sigh* welpers. i have a beautiful raspberry leaf tea here...and i ts just awaiting me. I still havent seen friends since early december/november. Not sure what to do about that... ergh anyhow I will put the photo up later as they are doing maintenance

me me me

this is a photo i took of myself... its a nice one so i thought id post it here! I am going to take on photographing myself. Its kinda fun.

on going

On going saga called life is still going on *SIghs* t si dont want to give into voices. I dont want to give in to all the voices. I just wantto be little ol ally again.


well thats

all i gotter sayy

ciao

ally

whats up ally?

whats up with me. ? Im not eating right im not sleeping that well. Oh well doesnt matter. I tried to write a poem..couldnt even do that. I guess its just me. I have been solving puzzles from thats life magazines.... fun. I even rn into mahfoud on here... he is going well...and has gf and is very happy. Which is nice to hear. he deserves some lovely lady.

anyhow, having left overs for tea tonight so i dont have to cook.


i am going to make these egg and apsaragus burgers tomorrow though.

albell

chain

I am painting again...which is so liberating... i am also planning a tripto new zealand to visit my friend. I am not that welll at the moment..depression has settled in, its a hard thing for me to deal with. I hope u r well.I have been throwing a lot of my work out...old stuff. Its also freeing..to not be tied to my past with a ball and chain. I am still a little nuts but oh well.


anyhow
write more later


albell

cross

I am very angry with myself.

for being able to catch the train today

im a bit lost at the moment. Im sure ill find my feet. sometime soon.

i wish i was better. So i can do all the things i like. Im in a rut. A real messed up place.

anyhow.. will write more later alligator

tapping

tap tap tap.. i got up this morning and just felt sad. Im not that great at the moment. Only takes ou to little bit for reality to set in. Its odd i was reading my past journals and used to dream about the devils and angels a hell of lot. I dont know why ever since s in my teens. Its like i had access to the constant battle between heaven and hell. I will write more later.

alligator.

heart

whats it like to have a heart?
TO to the ends of the earth they went for me.

They should have let me drown in the pool
I guess we all have moments like those

Not sure of where I am going
but they were always there for me

i miss a beat
i missed that beat

catching some sun

So its a lovely autumn day. I am inside. Angry as my ipod has broken. Ive had it for 3 weeks and it is so fecked already. So tomorrow, i will buy another one. Im not sure what i did to it.

Well i guess the picture i painted is real pretty

turn turn turn

turn turn turn
turn turn turn.

I do not remember my dreams lately...

turn turn turn
turn turn turn

I could not sleep for a while

turn turn turn
turn turn turn

think its a note of sleep i want

turn turn turn
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